▲ 123 ▼ Currently 2nd month on a break. (programming.dev) submitted 7 months ago by KernelTale@programming.dev to c/egg_irl@lemmy.blahaj.zone 31 comments fedilink hide all child comments Lynee from Genshin Impact fan art: https://www.pinterest.com/pin/lyney--74872412550593991/ Image I was not able to trace to its origin: https://wallhaven.cc/w/2emr8x
[–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 13 points 7 months ago (1 child) On break? permalink fedilink source hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 14 points 7 months ago (3 children) yep, I tried E for 6 weeks (happy with the permanent changes) and stop because my mood was swinging (still is) too often for me to make a such permanent decision. Now is 2nd month since pausing and I do feel like shit. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 6 child comments replies: [+] tlekiteki@lemmy.dbzer0.com 9 points 7 months ago (1 child) [removed by mod] permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 11 points 7 months ago* (1 child) I still swing even without E and to be honest I like the swings on E. Just not about a big life decision. And I use injections. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [+] tlekiteki@lemmy.dbzer0.com 6 points 7 months ago [removed by mod] permalink fedilink source parent [–] edg@lemmy.world 4 points 7 months ago (1 child) Been toying with the idea of an E trial period. What kind of permanent changes occurred after 6 weeks? 🫂 Best of luck figuring things out permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 4 points 7 months ago (1 child) Easy to hide breast buds. I wouldn't really recommend it. I didn't really have dysphoria until then. I just wanted to look more feminine and it would be easier for me to wear what I want. Now I have biochemical dysphoria and even though I like my body more I have a hard time figuring out my goals. Use it as a reassurance that it is what you want, not to find out. Also the mental recoil of pausing for the next month or even longer can be extremely severe and in my case even suicidal. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] edg@lemmy.world 2 points 7 months ago Sorry you're going through that. You've got this 🫂. I know what I want but what I struggle with is whether I want it badly enough to blow up my life. A friend who has fully transitioned raves about the positive mental changes from E and that's what I've wanted to experience even more than physical changes. permalink fedilink source parent [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 3 points 7 months ago (1 child) Funny how that works, huh? Do you have any reservations beyond the mood swings? permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 13 points 7 months ago (4 children) I kind of cannot imagine what I would look like. I would take all of those changes to a degree but I don't hate my current looks. My head is still swinging with this question and every time I try to give up I just can't. Estrogen makes me feel alive, pausing E made me feel like dying inside, and now I cry without knowing why. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 8 child comments replies: [–] EatMyPixelDust@lemmy.blahaj.zone 22 points 7 months ago* Estrogen makes me feel alive, pausing E made me feel like dying inside That sounds like an important observation there permalink fedilink source parent [–] apotheotic@beehaw.org 4 points 7 months ago Estrogen makes me feel alive, pausing E made me feel like dying inside Your body's telling you its answer - take your time deciding whether you agree <3 permalink fedilink source parent [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 4 points 7 months ago (1 child) Would you like your looks less if you went on hrt full-time? I feel like I should also mention that most changes from 6 weeks on hrt will completely reverse given enough time. You generally need several months to half a year for there to be irreversible changes. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 2 points 7 months ago (1 child) My body is very sensitive to estrogen. The breast tissue I have is a real is a real tissue and not just water or fat. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 point 7 months ago (1 child) So you wouldn't be happy with breasts? permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 3 points 7 months ago (1 child) oh I would if I felt certain. If I could like right now permanently get easily bindable breasts I would take it. Personal and I like the feeling of rolling in bed and feeling the tissue kind of stretch. It's a personal part of me making me feel fem, so I doubt I would dislike them if they got bigger but hideable. It's really just that it's permanent and my mood keeps swinging between certainty and self doubt. In one swing I inject E in another I destroyed my syringes as it was the only way to not take it during swings. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 point 7 months ago (1 child) So your main concern not being able to hide the changes, not the changes themselves? permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 2 points 7 months ago (1 child) My main concerns are those that I have somehow gaslighted myself and that my emotions and memories are fake. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 7 points 7 months ago In science, you can only ever have reasonable certainty for any empirical test. There eventually comes a point where scientists determine that the result is good enough, and move on to test other things. Everything science has ever discovered is built on what is most likely to be true, not what they know for certain to be true. It's similar when understanding things about yourself. Your doubts won't fully go away, only be minimized as you learn more about what you like. There won't be a magic sign that tells you what you really want; no definitive proof that pushes away all doubts. You'll eventually need to settle for a likely truth, not an unquestionable truth. permalink fedilink source parent [–] Amnesigenic@lemmy.ml 3 points 7 months ago You can't know for sure what you'll look like post-transition, but you already know that estrogen will make you feel better in general. So really it's just a question of what you value more, how you look or how you feel? permalink fedilink source parent
[–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 14 points 7 months ago (3 children) yep, I tried E for 6 weeks (happy with the permanent changes) and stop because my mood was swinging (still is) too often for me to make a such permanent decision. Now is 2nd month since pausing and I do feel like shit. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 6 child comments replies: [+] tlekiteki@lemmy.dbzer0.com 9 points 7 months ago (1 child) [removed by mod] permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 11 points 7 months ago* (1 child) I still swing even without E and to be honest I like the swings on E. Just not about a big life decision. And I use injections. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [+] tlekiteki@lemmy.dbzer0.com 6 points 7 months ago [removed by mod] permalink fedilink source parent [–] edg@lemmy.world 4 points 7 months ago (1 child) Been toying with the idea of an E trial period. What kind of permanent changes occurred after 6 weeks? 🫂 Best of luck figuring things out permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 4 points 7 months ago (1 child) Easy to hide breast buds. I wouldn't really recommend it. I didn't really have dysphoria until then. I just wanted to look more feminine and it would be easier for me to wear what I want. Now I have biochemical dysphoria and even though I like my body more I have a hard time figuring out my goals. Use it as a reassurance that it is what you want, not to find out. Also the mental recoil of pausing for the next month or even longer can be extremely severe and in my case even suicidal. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] edg@lemmy.world 2 points 7 months ago Sorry you're going through that. You've got this 🫂. I know what I want but what I struggle with is whether I want it badly enough to blow up my life. A friend who has fully transitioned raves about the positive mental changes from E and that's what I've wanted to experience even more than physical changes. permalink fedilink source parent [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 3 points 7 months ago (1 child) Funny how that works, huh? Do you have any reservations beyond the mood swings? permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 13 points 7 months ago (4 children) I kind of cannot imagine what I would look like. I would take all of those changes to a degree but I don't hate my current looks. My head is still swinging with this question and every time I try to give up I just can't. Estrogen makes me feel alive, pausing E made me feel like dying inside, and now I cry without knowing why. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 8 child comments replies: [–] EatMyPixelDust@lemmy.blahaj.zone 22 points 7 months ago* Estrogen makes me feel alive, pausing E made me feel like dying inside That sounds like an important observation there permalink fedilink source parent [–] apotheotic@beehaw.org 4 points 7 months ago Estrogen makes me feel alive, pausing E made me feel like dying inside Your body's telling you its answer - take your time deciding whether you agree <3 permalink fedilink source parent [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 4 points 7 months ago (1 child) Would you like your looks less if you went on hrt full-time? I feel like I should also mention that most changes from 6 weeks on hrt will completely reverse given enough time. You generally need several months to half a year for there to be irreversible changes. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 2 points 7 months ago (1 child) My body is very sensitive to estrogen. The breast tissue I have is a real is a real tissue and not just water or fat. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 point 7 months ago (1 child) So you wouldn't be happy with breasts? permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 3 points 7 months ago (1 child) oh I would if I felt certain. If I could like right now permanently get easily bindable breasts I would take it. Personal and I like the feeling of rolling in bed and feeling the tissue kind of stretch. It's a personal part of me making me feel fem, so I doubt I would dislike them if they got bigger but hideable. It's really just that it's permanent and my mood keeps swinging between certainty and self doubt. In one swing I inject E in another I destroyed my syringes as it was the only way to not take it during swings. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 point 7 months ago (1 child) So your main concern not being able to hide the changes, not the changes themselves? permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 2 points 7 months ago (1 child) My main concerns are those that I have somehow gaslighted myself and that my emotions and memories are fake. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 7 points 7 months ago In science, you can only ever have reasonable certainty for any empirical test. There eventually comes a point where scientists determine that the result is good enough, and move on to test other things. Everything science has ever discovered is built on what is most likely to be true, not what they know for certain to be true. It's similar when understanding things about yourself. Your doubts won't fully go away, only be minimized as you learn more about what you like. There won't be a magic sign that tells you what you really want; no definitive proof that pushes away all doubts. You'll eventually need to settle for a likely truth, not an unquestionable truth. permalink fedilink source parent [–] Amnesigenic@lemmy.ml 3 points 7 months ago You can't know for sure what you'll look like post-transition, but you already know that estrogen will make you feel better in general. So really it's just a question of what you value more, how you look or how you feel? permalink fedilink source parent
[+] tlekiteki@lemmy.dbzer0.com 9 points 7 months ago (1 child) [removed by mod] permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 11 points 7 months ago* (1 child) I still swing even without E and to be honest I like the swings on E. Just not about a big life decision. And I use injections. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [+] tlekiteki@lemmy.dbzer0.com 6 points 7 months ago [removed by mod] permalink fedilink source parent
[–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 11 points 7 months ago* (1 child) I still swing even without E and to be honest I like the swings on E. Just not about a big life decision. And I use injections. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [+] tlekiteki@lemmy.dbzer0.com 6 points 7 months ago [removed by mod] permalink fedilink source parent
[+] tlekiteki@lemmy.dbzer0.com 6 points 7 months ago [removed by mod] permalink fedilink source parent
[–] edg@lemmy.world 4 points 7 months ago (1 child) Been toying with the idea of an E trial period. What kind of permanent changes occurred after 6 weeks? 🫂 Best of luck figuring things out permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 4 points 7 months ago (1 child) Easy to hide breast buds. I wouldn't really recommend it. I didn't really have dysphoria until then. I just wanted to look more feminine and it would be easier for me to wear what I want. Now I have biochemical dysphoria and even though I like my body more I have a hard time figuring out my goals. Use it as a reassurance that it is what you want, not to find out. Also the mental recoil of pausing for the next month or even longer can be extremely severe and in my case even suicidal. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] edg@lemmy.world 2 points 7 months ago Sorry you're going through that. You've got this 🫂. I know what I want but what I struggle with is whether I want it badly enough to blow up my life. A friend who has fully transitioned raves about the positive mental changes from E and that's what I've wanted to experience even more than physical changes. permalink fedilink source parent
[–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 4 points 7 months ago (1 child) Easy to hide breast buds. I wouldn't really recommend it. I didn't really have dysphoria until then. I just wanted to look more feminine and it would be easier for me to wear what I want. Now I have biochemical dysphoria and even though I like my body more I have a hard time figuring out my goals. Use it as a reassurance that it is what you want, not to find out. Also the mental recoil of pausing for the next month or even longer can be extremely severe and in my case even suicidal. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] edg@lemmy.world 2 points 7 months ago Sorry you're going through that. You've got this 🫂. I know what I want but what I struggle with is whether I want it badly enough to blow up my life. A friend who has fully transitioned raves about the positive mental changes from E and that's what I've wanted to experience even more than physical changes. permalink fedilink source parent
[–] edg@lemmy.world 2 points 7 months ago Sorry you're going through that. You've got this 🫂. I know what I want but what I struggle with is whether I want it badly enough to blow up my life. A friend who has fully transitioned raves about the positive mental changes from E and that's what I've wanted to experience even more than physical changes. permalink fedilink source parent
[–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 3 points 7 months ago (1 child) Funny how that works, huh? Do you have any reservations beyond the mood swings? permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 13 points 7 months ago (4 children) I kind of cannot imagine what I would look like. I would take all of those changes to a degree but I don't hate my current looks. My head is still swinging with this question and every time I try to give up I just can't. Estrogen makes me feel alive, pausing E made me feel like dying inside, and now I cry without knowing why. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 8 child comments replies: [–] EatMyPixelDust@lemmy.blahaj.zone 22 points 7 months ago* Estrogen makes me feel alive, pausing E made me feel like dying inside That sounds like an important observation there permalink fedilink source parent [–] apotheotic@beehaw.org 4 points 7 months ago Estrogen makes me feel alive, pausing E made me feel like dying inside Your body's telling you its answer - take your time deciding whether you agree <3 permalink fedilink source parent [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 4 points 7 months ago (1 child) Would you like your looks less if you went on hrt full-time? I feel like I should also mention that most changes from 6 weeks on hrt will completely reverse given enough time. You generally need several months to half a year for there to be irreversible changes. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 2 points 7 months ago (1 child) My body is very sensitive to estrogen. The breast tissue I have is a real is a real tissue and not just water or fat. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 point 7 months ago (1 child) So you wouldn't be happy with breasts? permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 3 points 7 months ago (1 child) oh I would if I felt certain. If I could like right now permanently get easily bindable breasts I would take it. Personal and I like the feeling of rolling in bed and feeling the tissue kind of stretch. It's a personal part of me making me feel fem, so I doubt I would dislike them if they got bigger but hideable. It's really just that it's permanent and my mood keeps swinging between certainty and self doubt. In one swing I inject E in another I destroyed my syringes as it was the only way to not take it during swings. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 point 7 months ago (1 child) So your main concern not being able to hide the changes, not the changes themselves? permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 2 points 7 months ago (1 child) My main concerns are those that I have somehow gaslighted myself and that my emotions and memories are fake. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 7 points 7 months ago In science, you can only ever have reasonable certainty for any empirical test. There eventually comes a point where scientists determine that the result is good enough, and move on to test other things. Everything science has ever discovered is built on what is most likely to be true, not what they know for certain to be true. It's similar when understanding things about yourself. Your doubts won't fully go away, only be minimized as you learn more about what you like. There won't be a magic sign that tells you what you really want; no definitive proof that pushes away all doubts. You'll eventually need to settle for a likely truth, not an unquestionable truth. permalink fedilink source parent [–] Amnesigenic@lemmy.ml 3 points 7 months ago You can't know for sure what you'll look like post-transition, but you already know that estrogen will make you feel better in general. So really it's just a question of what you value more, how you look or how you feel? permalink fedilink source parent
[–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 13 points 7 months ago (4 children) I kind of cannot imagine what I would look like. I would take all of those changes to a degree but I don't hate my current looks. My head is still swinging with this question and every time I try to give up I just can't. Estrogen makes me feel alive, pausing E made me feel like dying inside, and now I cry without knowing why. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 8 child comments replies: [–] EatMyPixelDust@lemmy.blahaj.zone 22 points 7 months ago* Estrogen makes me feel alive, pausing E made me feel like dying inside That sounds like an important observation there permalink fedilink source parent [–] apotheotic@beehaw.org 4 points 7 months ago Estrogen makes me feel alive, pausing E made me feel like dying inside Your body's telling you its answer - take your time deciding whether you agree <3 permalink fedilink source parent [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 4 points 7 months ago (1 child) Would you like your looks less if you went on hrt full-time? I feel like I should also mention that most changes from 6 weeks on hrt will completely reverse given enough time. You generally need several months to half a year for there to be irreversible changes. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 2 points 7 months ago (1 child) My body is very sensitive to estrogen. The breast tissue I have is a real is a real tissue and not just water or fat. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 point 7 months ago (1 child) So you wouldn't be happy with breasts? permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 3 points 7 months ago (1 child) oh I would if I felt certain. If I could like right now permanently get easily bindable breasts I would take it. Personal and I like the feeling of rolling in bed and feeling the tissue kind of stretch. It's a personal part of me making me feel fem, so I doubt I would dislike them if they got bigger but hideable. It's really just that it's permanent and my mood keeps swinging between certainty and self doubt. In one swing I inject E in another I destroyed my syringes as it was the only way to not take it during swings. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 point 7 months ago (1 child) So your main concern not being able to hide the changes, not the changes themselves? permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 2 points 7 months ago (1 child) My main concerns are those that I have somehow gaslighted myself and that my emotions and memories are fake. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 7 points 7 months ago In science, you can only ever have reasonable certainty for any empirical test. There eventually comes a point where scientists determine that the result is good enough, and move on to test other things. Everything science has ever discovered is built on what is most likely to be true, not what they know for certain to be true. It's similar when understanding things about yourself. Your doubts won't fully go away, only be minimized as you learn more about what you like. There won't be a magic sign that tells you what you really want; no definitive proof that pushes away all doubts. You'll eventually need to settle for a likely truth, not an unquestionable truth. permalink fedilink source parent [–] Amnesigenic@lemmy.ml 3 points 7 months ago You can't know for sure what you'll look like post-transition, but you already know that estrogen will make you feel better in general. So really it's just a question of what you value more, how you look or how you feel? permalink fedilink source parent
[–] EatMyPixelDust@lemmy.blahaj.zone 22 points 7 months ago* Estrogen makes me feel alive, pausing E made me feel like dying inside That sounds like an important observation there permalink fedilink source parent
[–] apotheotic@beehaw.org 4 points 7 months ago Estrogen makes me feel alive, pausing E made me feel like dying inside Your body's telling you its answer - take your time deciding whether you agree <3 permalink fedilink source parent
[–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 4 points 7 months ago (1 child) Would you like your looks less if you went on hrt full-time? I feel like I should also mention that most changes from 6 weeks on hrt will completely reverse given enough time. You generally need several months to half a year for there to be irreversible changes. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 2 points 7 months ago (1 child) My body is very sensitive to estrogen. The breast tissue I have is a real is a real tissue and not just water or fat. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 point 7 months ago (1 child) So you wouldn't be happy with breasts? permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 3 points 7 months ago (1 child) oh I would if I felt certain. If I could like right now permanently get easily bindable breasts I would take it. Personal and I like the feeling of rolling in bed and feeling the tissue kind of stretch. It's a personal part of me making me feel fem, so I doubt I would dislike them if they got bigger but hideable. It's really just that it's permanent and my mood keeps swinging between certainty and self doubt. In one swing I inject E in another I destroyed my syringes as it was the only way to not take it during swings. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 point 7 months ago (1 child) So your main concern not being able to hide the changes, not the changes themselves? permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 2 points 7 months ago (1 child) My main concerns are those that I have somehow gaslighted myself and that my emotions and memories are fake. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 7 points 7 months ago In science, you can only ever have reasonable certainty for any empirical test. There eventually comes a point where scientists determine that the result is good enough, and move on to test other things. Everything science has ever discovered is built on what is most likely to be true, not what they know for certain to be true. It's similar when understanding things about yourself. Your doubts won't fully go away, only be minimized as you learn more about what you like. There won't be a magic sign that tells you what you really want; no definitive proof that pushes away all doubts. You'll eventually need to settle for a likely truth, not an unquestionable truth. permalink fedilink source parent
[–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 2 points 7 months ago (1 child) My body is very sensitive to estrogen. The breast tissue I have is a real is a real tissue and not just water or fat. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 point 7 months ago (1 child) So you wouldn't be happy with breasts? permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 3 points 7 months ago (1 child) oh I would if I felt certain. If I could like right now permanently get easily bindable breasts I would take it. Personal and I like the feeling of rolling in bed and feeling the tissue kind of stretch. It's a personal part of me making me feel fem, so I doubt I would dislike them if they got bigger but hideable. It's really just that it's permanent and my mood keeps swinging between certainty and self doubt. In one swing I inject E in another I destroyed my syringes as it was the only way to not take it during swings. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 point 7 months ago (1 child) So your main concern not being able to hide the changes, not the changes themselves? permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 2 points 7 months ago (1 child) My main concerns are those that I have somehow gaslighted myself and that my emotions and memories are fake. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 7 points 7 months ago In science, you can only ever have reasonable certainty for any empirical test. There eventually comes a point where scientists determine that the result is good enough, and move on to test other things. Everything science has ever discovered is built on what is most likely to be true, not what they know for certain to be true. It's similar when understanding things about yourself. Your doubts won't fully go away, only be minimized as you learn more about what you like. There won't be a magic sign that tells you what you really want; no definitive proof that pushes away all doubts. You'll eventually need to settle for a likely truth, not an unquestionable truth. permalink fedilink source parent
[–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 point 7 months ago (1 child) So you wouldn't be happy with breasts? permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 3 points 7 months ago (1 child) oh I would if I felt certain. If I could like right now permanently get easily bindable breasts I would take it. Personal and I like the feeling of rolling in bed and feeling the tissue kind of stretch. It's a personal part of me making me feel fem, so I doubt I would dislike them if they got bigger but hideable. It's really just that it's permanent and my mood keeps swinging between certainty and self doubt. In one swing I inject E in another I destroyed my syringes as it was the only way to not take it during swings. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 point 7 months ago (1 child) So your main concern not being able to hide the changes, not the changes themselves? permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 2 points 7 months ago (1 child) My main concerns are those that I have somehow gaslighted myself and that my emotions and memories are fake. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 7 points 7 months ago In science, you can only ever have reasonable certainty for any empirical test. There eventually comes a point where scientists determine that the result is good enough, and move on to test other things. Everything science has ever discovered is built on what is most likely to be true, not what they know for certain to be true. It's similar when understanding things about yourself. Your doubts won't fully go away, only be minimized as you learn more about what you like. There won't be a magic sign that tells you what you really want; no definitive proof that pushes away all doubts. You'll eventually need to settle for a likely truth, not an unquestionable truth. permalink fedilink source parent
[–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 3 points 7 months ago (1 child) oh I would if I felt certain. If I could like right now permanently get easily bindable breasts I would take it. Personal and I like the feeling of rolling in bed and feeling the tissue kind of stretch. It's a personal part of me making me feel fem, so I doubt I would dislike them if they got bigger but hideable. It's really just that it's permanent and my mood keeps swinging between certainty and self doubt. In one swing I inject E in another I destroyed my syringes as it was the only way to not take it during swings. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 point 7 months ago (1 child) So your main concern not being able to hide the changes, not the changes themselves? permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 2 points 7 months ago (1 child) My main concerns are those that I have somehow gaslighted myself and that my emotions and memories are fake. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 7 points 7 months ago In science, you can only ever have reasonable certainty for any empirical test. There eventually comes a point where scientists determine that the result is good enough, and move on to test other things. Everything science has ever discovered is built on what is most likely to be true, not what they know for certain to be true. It's similar when understanding things about yourself. Your doubts won't fully go away, only be minimized as you learn more about what you like. There won't be a magic sign that tells you what you really want; no definitive proof that pushes away all doubts. You'll eventually need to settle for a likely truth, not an unquestionable truth. permalink fedilink source parent
[–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 point 7 months ago (1 child) So your main concern not being able to hide the changes, not the changes themselves? permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 2 points 7 months ago (1 child) My main concerns are those that I have somehow gaslighted myself and that my emotions and memories are fake. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 7 points 7 months ago In science, you can only ever have reasonable certainty for any empirical test. There eventually comes a point where scientists determine that the result is good enough, and move on to test other things. Everything science has ever discovered is built on what is most likely to be true, not what they know for certain to be true. It's similar when understanding things about yourself. Your doubts won't fully go away, only be minimized as you learn more about what you like. There won't be a magic sign that tells you what you really want; no definitive proof that pushes away all doubts. You'll eventually need to settle for a likely truth, not an unquestionable truth. permalink fedilink source parent
[–] KernelTale@programming.dev [S] 2 points 7 months ago (1 child) My main concerns are those that I have somehow gaslighted myself and that my emotions and memories are fake. permalink fedilink source parent hideshow 2 child comments replies: [–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 7 points 7 months ago In science, you can only ever have reasonable certainty for any empirical test. There eventually comes a point where scientists determine that the result is good enough, and move on to test other things. Everything science has ever discovered is built on what is most likely to be true, not what they know for certain to be true. It's similar when understanding things about yourself. Your doubts won't fully go away, only be minimized as you learn more about what you like. There won't be a magic sign that tells you what you really want; no definitive proof that pushes away all doubts. You'll eventually need to settle for a likely truth, not an unquestionable truth. permalink fedilink source parent
[–] TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone 7 points 7 months ago In science, you can only ever have reasonable certainty for any empirical test. There eventually comes a point where scientists determine that the result is good enough, and move on to test other things. Everything science has ever discovered is built on what is most likely to be true, not what they know for certain to be true. It's similar when understanding things about yourself. Your doubts won't fully go away, only be minimized as you learn more about what you like. There won't be a magic sign that tells you what you really want; no definitive proof that pushes away all doubts. You'll eventually need to settle for a likely truth, not an unquestionable truth. permalink fedilink source parent
[–] Amnesigenic@lemmy.ml 3 points 7 months ago You can't know for sure what you'll look like post-transition, but you already know that estrogen will make you feel better in general. So really it's just a question of what you value more, how you look or how you feel? permalink fedilink source parent
