So I've been seeing counsellors/psychs/etc on and off since I was 13. I'd get really bad, and then we'd talk and then i'd get better and then I leave and the cycle renews itself. So about 2021 I had a really shitty counsellor. All he wanted to talk about was me getting a job, when I said to him in my final session that I want to get tested for ADHD and could he do a mini test so I'm not wasting over a grand to get told no. Anyways, he asks me like more hyperactive stuff and typical of boys, and then he goes "I don't think you have ADHD because I could tell". Negating the fact that the 5 sessions I had with him I've mentioned how I forget things, I procrastinate, I would rather play video games than do anything else. Like... he sucked, I hated him.

So, I do some Googling and find one who is close enough, schedule appointments and I've been with her ever since. She's not the type to try and "fix me", she's there for me to talk about things, she's super understanding and caring. And she also went through a diagnostic tool with me and confirmed that it is likely I have ADHD (this was before I was tested). Also diagnosed me with C-PTSD. So anyways, cut to May or so of this year, and I'm getting my appointment ready and the MHCP is wrong. Ugh, okay reschedule. Next appointment, my MHCP is not a MHCP it's actually those 5 free appointment things that I'm using for my physio so I can't use them for my psych. Next doc appointment the doc tells me that I don't have any Medicare appointments (which is wrong) but he'll get it figured out.

I never got a call or anything. So finally today going to the doc to get some scripts (and also got my doc cert to take tomorrow off, I don't care if it's unpaid I need it), and I think telling my doc that I have some not happy thoughts, I was able to get the correct MHCP.

Sorry for this long message, I'm just very happy I can see my psych again. I don't gatekeep here, if anyone needs a psych that's all telehealth, go see Roslyn Delrayne, she is just the bees knees!

Today I received my first ever business cards. I know that it probably seems dumb, but looking back at where I was 8 years ago, and then seeing my name on a business card as "partner", really made me smile.

Hope everyone has a great day 🙂

Holy fucking shit. I just realised that I know the woman at the centre of the recent death cap mushroom poisoning deaths. I used She and her husband were close friends of mine as we all worked together over 15 years ago. I went to their wedding and her in laws were genuinely the most lovely people. She had some serious issues but seemed to get better after meeting her husband. Her husband was also one of the kindest people i have ever met. I'm in shock.

Fuck me. Somehow ended up sitting near the hyenas today in the office. They ventured closer to our little section of the floor and disrespected the invisible boundary.

Worse part, one of them (Cheryl or Charelle or something like that) just came back from her holiday in QLD and everyone just has to hear about it.

Well... After a very long and expensive and confusing MH journey and some frustrating technical hiccups, I've finally got to the point where I have a box of ritalin to start on tomorrow. Strange combination of nervous, excited, guilty, relieved. Feels a bit scary having so much of a schedule 8 drug in front of me. I hope to hell this finally helps me stop sabotaging myself constantly

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There’s apparently a Senate inquiry into the worsening rental crisis if anyone wanted to make a submission

https://www.aph.gov.au/Parliamentary_Business/Committees/Senate/Community_Affairs/Worseningrentalcrisis

Just found out I'm getting rewarded at work. Noice

My dinner

Image of a plate with an assortment of green vegetables, a couple of cherry tomatoes, pork and ginger dumplings, pommes and a hoisin dipping sauce.

It was really good. The fam were genuinely confused by this dish but consumed it anyway.

I hate how expensive groceries are, I'm so sick of this.

I really do not like the word "e-meet". "Nice to e-meet you". There's no such thing as meeting someone by e-mailing them. Just go straight into saying who you are and what you want?

Well work has been an entertaining shitshow and I'm choosing to focus on the entertaining part. LOL. Ahhhh. Sigh.

Early dinner tonight. Cheeky takeaway tonight.

Sorry for not being around lately. Been super tired and also busy.

I hope everyone has been well and doing ok lately. Will try and check in more if I’m not napping or sleeping.

Super Surpreme Pizza from Pizza Hut

New mushroom theory.

The ex-husband did it and set up his ex-wife. He has most to gain. She had nothing to gain.

oh yeah, nothing like calculating all your deductions on your tax return and going a tentative "ooo"

AND HERE COMES THE MEDICARE LEVY WITH A FOLDING STEEL CHAIR!!!

Choco Churro Turtle Chips 🐢🐢🐢

All downhill now

distracts self from woes via teapot hunt

omg, reading about the tragedy in Hawaii. A hurricane and wild fires at the same time. I just can't imagine it. No where safe to run to.

gonna be honest, Not mad keen to be testing the swag in the rain this weekend but Im desperate enough for a change of scenery that it could be snowing and I'd probs still have a crack.

So often I've been disappointed by frozen chip brands but I found a winner tonight in woollies : "Proper Chips".

🎼Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
you set my soul alight🎶🎶

Next to my office is another great big building full of offices who's lights stay on 24/7 despite the place currently being unoccupied, and it really shits me. The world burns and this huge multi story building leaves it hundreds of fluorescent lights on for absolutely no reason. Not to sound silly, but it kind of makes me wish there was some sort of place you could call to complain.

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Unphotographed burger has been consumed. Dinner was late because I got distracted enrolling in a study that popped up on my Facebook feed. It is about the effects of A2 vs standard milk, and if I do get in I get free milk for a month, plus a gift card. Don't tell them but I'd do it just for the free milk.

Okay this is definitely the type of 13 degree day that laughs at my coat and scarf innit? Innit?

Midnight Snack: sour cream on multigrain bread, with a few shavings of cheese.

All aboard the Fart-Train; toot toot motherfuckers 🚂💨💨💨

Cool weather calls for

Oodie, soft and comforting.

No plans now, cancelled.

That winds carrying on a bit, saw a couple of trucks wobble on the Bolte Bridge coming home.

To sleep or watch nazis melt in the thrilling conclusion to raiders of the lost ark?

There is...something nesting in the ceiling cavity above my office and work haven't done anything about it despite knowing for months. I think it's a rat because some of the noises I've heard. I've mostly gotten used to it now but I must be subconsciously worried about it, because last night in my dream I was at work and rats kept breaking through the plaster and dropping all over the floor.

I need extra coffee this morning.

So my Shakti mat and pillow arrived yesterday. Mother FUCKER they hurt at first. I could do my neck and shoulders and I've managed to do my feet and legs on the mat (feet I can't put my entire weight on initially). What I absolutely cannot do yet and might not be able to for a while is sit with my bum on the mat. YOW!!!

But holy hell do my muscles feel invigorated and a million times less tight. Especially my neck and shoulders! And my right arm which had been feeling weak/numb at times last year and early this year. I can use the mat or pillow while watching TV and take them around with me anywhere. This is great!