I read a lot of manga etc.. When I saw this I've almost read it manga style and then I was like: wait I am on Lemmy and then I've seen that I have failed.

I tried being more feminine in public and it was unpleasant caused by my head alone even though I've went with this "gay-ish" look outside multiple times, so I tried to be masculine (in my head) and I got a sudden urge to wear a skirt and I got teary that I am not a girl. How do I get better at reading my own emotions?

Fuck it I am buying a dress. (Probably not this one but still)

Yes, it is also totally cis to wish for a more feminine appearance and trying estrogen.

I did as such. I have been a month on estrogen with my mind swinging with this decision in intervals of a few hours to 2 days. Well now I broke all of my syringes just so I don't do it again just because of a mood swing in a stage where everything is reversible or at least can be hidden. I have small breast buds but I like them and they will for the most part shrink. I want to continue but I need more time I think.

Good/bad/sorry for you. Either way you shouldn't encourage stupid teenagers to get themselves into potentially dangerous relationships.

Mine doesn't but I will welcome it none the less

Both of them

I will bring alcohol you figure out where we are going to go.

To the hell with Windows. Linux is my one true love.

Same, I dislike that not only I have to buy gifts but I also have to receive them?!

Linux is my only real love, but as much as I love it I am not ready for Arch. Therefore my estrogen after a month long trial sits on my shelf. Currently on Mint and confused as fuck. Any idea where I can get SERMs?