I'm not Christian, as you can see by criticism of Roman Catholicism and offshoots here.

But you do believe in god? I am antitheist. Christianity is what I was personally abused by, but it could happen if we treat any god, any baseless claim as fact. People just make shit up and it causes problems.

if God Himself wanted to make people he couldn't control, because He decided so, how would He? He can just remake a universe of actual sims if he wanted to.

I don't believe in free will. Our brains are physical things. But if a god was all-powerful, they could do anything. Like, he could make people very similar to how we are (to make this example easier to imagine), but actually interact with them directly instead of being vague and absent. He could show us why he is worth worshipping, or confirm his existence to anyone with functioning senses, which he could guarantee we all have if he's all-powerful.

That is one of infinite examples, because all-powerful suggests he could do anything. Christians show a startling lack of imagination when they pretend that the world must be the way it is.

And hey, you're not the only one who has had it hard because of Christians/so called religious people, I get it and I'm sorry. I'm not defending them here.

Thank you. Others have it worse than I do. Many are dead and the number continues to rise. I think too many people have internalized the idea that everyone is entitled to their beliefs. We should all try to align our beliefs as closely with reality as we can.