i think everyone has that, obv everybody wants to look good, but:

the way I see it there are two cases:

either you (conventionally) look good presenting as a man, in which case every compliment I would get feels really detached and i don't really feel seen and more trapped in a gender role that feels very unnaural to be seen as and in the mirror

or you already don't look good (conventionally) presenting as a man in which case it doesn't make a difference, might as well be yourself, you'd be surprised what people are into xD

I'm like mid and look kinda genderqueer but not really like a woman at all

imo it's better to feel seen then to persue conventional beauty because the beauty industry is so so toxic and so much work and money and in the end you are more insecure then ever