I appreciate the recommendation, I'll look into it thanks.

There are a few channels like that I watch, one is "History to fall asleep to" or something like that.

I just downloaded NewPipe, and on there you can turn off the screen and just have the audio playing, so that's awesome.

It's tricky for me, because if the show is too boring, my mind will wander and I'll start to get anxious, thinking about things I shouldn't. Conversely if it's too exciting, I'll get too into it and it'll wake me back up lol

I know, I'm kind of a mess.

To make matters worse most sleeping medicine doesn't work at all for me, and the only one I've found that does gives me dry mouth to the point it gags me.