I'm so sorry, I've had it pretty easy compared to most, but I definitely feel you. Representation is so important, I wouldn't be here if it weren't for all the cool trans people online, given how closed off I am, without it I wouldn't have stood a chance, I've never been suicidal but I often wonder where I'd be in a couple of years if I wasn't exposed to the voices of queer people online. A lot of the things I heard about when I was younger were from cis voices, and it really doesn't do it.

That's why I feel things like social media bans are going to cause a lot of harm to young queer people, because we just don't get that kind of representation in traditional media. Contrary though, I do see a lot more trans people in general now (in public), that and with things like the NHS waiting list probably being (at least in part) due to sheer volume, I feel like public representation could be a good substitute (in safe countries), since I (at least hope) we aren't going back.

I don't really have much life experience, and am quite literally 3 weeks or so old (since I accepted myself), so I'm not sure my advice will mean much (sorry), but it seems you're better now than you have been, If you haven't already (and if you're in a stable place to do so), start picking up your interests again, find some people to care about (and who care about you!), and try to make the best of what you have.

Not quite (it's newer) :3

I know :(

I don't think I can change it though, silly firmware limitation.

I was more sympathising with the poster, but yeah that's about it.

I'm not gonna engage mentally with anything from .ml since from experience it really isn't worth it. Taking a wander on .ml was pretty much the most confusing thing I've ever experienced when I first tried out lemmy, I mean their ukraine community is all you need to see, really is kind of another level of closed off from reality. Either you're out of the loop or you agree with them, but .ml being based around a (relatively) singular unquestioning belief system isn't healthy.

Well yeah that's lemmy.ml for you.

Admittedly don't know any of the context and can't argue on it, but the instance's political stance is very whack (tankies).

A folder of music I couldn't give less of a damn about apparently

You're probably right yeah.

I don't know if it's unlucky or lucky, but a most girls will wear jeans where I live, which makes sense why I've only ever been she/her'd when wearing jeans. Unlucky because it'll make wearing things like a skirt more awkward.

Also thanks <3

I'll be sure to let you know when/if I do diy, thanks <3

Oh lol, then I guess it's cool that helped you figure it out. I've been meaning to compliment someone at uni (they seemed nervous) but I missed the chance, I'll be sure to do so when we start again in September.

About my hair, it's naturally thick and curly, so I'm not sure if this will work for everyone, but it normally gets very frizzy if I don't do anything with it, so my Mum taught me to use hair mousse, and I've settled on one of the strongest ones that Wella (the company) makes, other than that I don't really take care of my hair as well as I could be, just that and re-doing it every 2-3 days to stop it from knotting. If you know Tony Statovci then mine is just his if it were shorter, although he ties his hair up a lot so you'll have to see it when he has it down.

Thanks again I really appreciate all the support everyone is giving me. <3

I wonder if it's more common for bi people to have less binary gender experiences?

Anyway thanks, I feel similar about my gender, it's nice to hear from other people!