[–] 13 points 2 years ago (1 child)

Mike must be the man he betrayed, and keeping updated on his life on a dead, old desire for revenge is pretty funny when you accept that he clearly will probably never do anything about it…?

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    Hi. I’ve been afraid of all non-human life since before I could remember. I got past it, mostly, but I’ve never gotten over the fact that animals can’t speak what they mean.

    I know that sounds stupid, but fear is irrational and I accept my own.

    Anyways, my girlfriends sister has 5 cats that she’s looking to adopt away. I’ve thought recently how nice it would be to have a cat, but I’m scared. I lost my job recently. I’m scared to adopt a cat we can’t take care of. My girlfriends scared I won’t be able to make money to survive. Hell, I’m scared about that too. I’ve been going to therapy for half a year now, and I’ve had a LOT of self discovery along the way.

    I think I’m different from the afraid-of-cats-and-all-animals-including-fish-and-hamsters?!?! That I am.

    Can you please teach me how cats think? I really want to get a cat, but I didn’t before I got drunk, and I am fishing for support in getting over my fear. I will most likely not end up getting a cat. Can you please teach me facts about how cats work anyways? They don’t have to be general, even just your owns. I’ve seen many cat videos, I get the gist. Kinda. They land so quick and I’m fine getting scratched, but I guess… just not dominated by an animal I can’t understand?!

    I don’t know.

    Cat facts please? No pressure. Thank you for writing and/or reading, I love you for either.

    [–] [S] 1 point 2 years ago

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    Power lies in paths realized, expressed in terms of interaction, created in the safety of a human mind.

    The mind implies the brain, but what most forget is that it also includes the body. The body speaks as you.

    But power lies in relationships and your place in them. The “bodies,” outside of you interact in very complex ways. The “body,” within, though?

    Now that I question with such text, I answer in passion. I want this passion to be visible, for that sake I dream of making an interface to write.

    I’ll make it on Linux, accessible by command line, but I’ll make it accessible with a GUI as well.

    First comes the gui, not in code but in formulation of a place for me to write freely.

    “Frame of reference is the necessary difference for separation to exist.” - me, now.

    How audacious, to write my thoughts on such a way. Contagiously, is my hope in that question with no question mark.

    Who cares what I have to say, when it’s nothing but pseudo-intellectual bullshit.

    Alas! I’ve found a target I would not mind exposing to this utter bullshit that is my soul right now.

    You! I ask not for love, for hate, or anything inbetween or not. I ask for naught. Only that you care enough for the time you HAVE lost in reading whatever portion of this that you have read, to ask yourself what you feel.

    Anytime, anywhere, all the time, everywhere, what you feel. Do you feel your breath? Your fingers, your toes, your muscles, your bones? The beating of your heart, that travels everywhere?

    I don’t ask for an answer. I ask and I listen, I speak and it’s enough. Alas, if only that was the case. If only I could SHUT THE FUCK UP.

    We live for many reasons, one of which is that we haven’t died yet. Another is that our parents fucked.

    Was it worth it? I guess that’s what they must ask? Maybe? Sometimes? With no “earth,” as Plato saw it, we travel at the speed of light. Mass is the slowing down of light, from the perspective of the very very fat.

    I strive to mean much, yet I still walk empty. I talk less than air, I scream with words silent. Is it worth the read? Was I worth my seed?

    When you trust yourself to answer honestly is when the questions disappear.

    Help, a scream of love, not me, but yourself. And not for me, either, please. The stronger my light grows, the easier it is to hide in its shadow.

    Cry for yourself, if you can. It’s too late for me. Pray for your children, it’s too late for their seed. 03:29

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  • [–] 54 points 2 years ago* (5 children)

    I’ve got the 3rd gen and it’s lasted at least 3 years now.

    It’s really nice to see what this community has to offer on lemmy. I quit Reddit because I refuse to use the Reddit app. I really do like the comments more than Reddit, and I’m a wannabe techno savvy Linux pro but I’m still working on basic motivation. Therapy included.

    I’ve got Linux on Debian cause I needed the stability to handle my instability, I’ve read through the Linux command line and fell in love with emacs, and all I do on my pc is write, now. And pay bills, but that’s just Firefox. “Just the internet,” lol. It’s hard to try to contain, so I write.

    Hope I don’t get banned for irrelevance. No hate here. Just rambling through.

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    This is a test. I have lots of textual shitposts to make, waiting to be released from the potential that is my soul, in its experience of my self as separate “parts,” created from memories. So many words. Are you allowed to unironically make copy pasta? This post is gibberish and so am I.

    What be the rules? I’m all I’ve ever been and making my way to all I’ll ever be, and I’m also an idiot. How do I fill the hole? “Whole” only lasts so long, why’s the dark gotta be so scary?

    Stay glib

     

    I would like to know of a community where I can post things that I write to myself. I’m not capable enough to make my own community yet, and I’ve got a lot to say.

    My question, though, is about learning. What’s your single most essential defining piece of advice, to share the love of learning? To make someone who isn’t interested, interested?

    Other than necessity, I guess. I hope that doesn’t just answer the question.

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    I hope this is okay:

    You sit there, feeling important. Feeling amazing. You sing, you want to dance, you feel good.

    You sit, now, but you only do that to write. You're bobbing your head, you're in love, you're enamored with existence, the leaves are sticky and the wheels are so fast you can only think of their position as speed.

    Miles per hour is a beautiful standard, and beauty's hard to come by in math.

    But, there's humility to be had. Try, once, to record yourself in something you believe yourself to be confident in that you've never experienced as an interpreter.

    Record and watch, or listen. Write, then read.

    Then, will you wonder? Or wander? Saunter?

    Or, will you for once, believe in the beauty you create? Why let it go, when it's all that you are? More than have, but to BE. Sometimes it might be hard to tell the difference, but you are what you are.

    You are what you are.

    Hear ye, and be see.

    Sight is flight from the now, it's abstraction the allows for retraction, it's love that you can never get enough of, just... see. Be.

    Find the do. To be or not to be, There's the FUCKING rub, for each and every option.

    Of which there are many, as many as there are any, fucking things to be.

    Words have meaning, take what you glean, I hope you can demean, if only... you can redefine.

    Just don't, please, don't defile. I'm swimming in words, everywhere, a messy pile.

    File your own, revile what you've grown, and start fresh, if you haven't already, in your complicated flesh.

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