Ankylosaur, the armoured tank dinosaur!

I have no idea how to estimate a high to sober ratio.

I'm probably sitting at a 4 - 5 right now:

If you're asking in the last 24 hours how many hours I've spent high vs sober - almost all of them sober (only the past few have been high), so roughly 92% of the last 24 hours has been sober?

Last six months is probably more like 99% in terms of hours - I've had alcohol maybe two - three times this month, weed maybe 3 - 4 times, coffee / caffeine only twice.

Lifetime is 99+%, there are just so few hours I've been high - it's probably less than 30 days a year.

prolly

yeah, both hands can point at one another just fine (and I can alternate, too)

religion, my dude. religion

oh god, that's dark - I don't know, but there are many devices that were engineered to torture people, e.g. the Spanish donkey - if it weren't such a bad headspace I could probably come up with an approximate for the worst thing

but maybe I should just choose leaded gasoline since it poisoned so many people

or maybe agent orange, I dunno

How can it be anything else? Put your socks on in your bedroom, get ready to go, grab a purse or a bag and car keys and stuff, and then put your shoes on in the genkan or entryway or foyer or whatever.

Or are you telling me there’s people who wear shoes in the house?

almost always: sock, sock then shoe, shoe

it's usually a glitch in my brain that leads to sock, shoe, sock shoe - and it feels wrong when I do it.

oh, right - cannabis

(EDIT: I use it to cope from laser hair removal, which feels a bit like being poked with a hot iron over and over again)

I dunno, I've felt like full body geometric recursively folding-into-itself-and-expanding floral heart waves that felt like the immense happiness and love that I have for everyone in the world - but that was more like a feeling than a thought ...

because they're five

I get annoying clogs/half-hits when I don't leave the cart upright

Some shit carts just straight up leak the oil out of the mouthpiece

Makes me miss herb extra hard

But my mom never shuts the fuck up about how much she hates the smell, so smoking a joint has to be an excursion downwind of my own home

My brain seems to wander when high - I find it hard to concentrate, and every single thought is so expansive - it can make it both enjoyable and also very difficult to read a book, for example. Everything is so suggestive, and makes a deeper impression.

I can also get easily paranoid and anxious on cannabis - like I can get really scared that I won't know how to breathe right or that my tongue could suddenly choke me, etc. but also just like ... paranoid about other people and their intentions - I'll read a book and little ambiguities in the interpretation of the author's words can get me paranoid about whether the author is being ironic, or lying to me, or if they're being sincere or not, etc.

Weird thoughts.

I took 2 doses of a CBD tincture earlier in the day, which really cuts down on the paranoia for me - I haven't had much paranoia, but I definitely feel more "spooked" and easily can get pulled into paranoid-adjacent feelings (I have to be a bit more careful about my headspace)

In terms of cravings - I was cooking this pesto pasta earlier, and it did not turn out great, so I'm craving good pesto pasta 😭 You know it's bad when you don't enjoy it despite being both hungry and high 😄

I think the pasta needs way more salt, and I think it needs more and better pesto, tbh - it tastes bland.

And there are a bunch of leftovers, too 🙈