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There is no such thing as normal, so embrace who you are in all of your different ways.

Even if physical handicaps are involved, like you actually can't walk a straight line or if you have difficulty breathing, that has its own challenges but it's not wrong.

And yeah. People can be really dick'ish sometimes and that sucks. The sooner you stop giving a fuck what they think, the sooner you can be happier with yourself.

The second I embraced who I was, in my own ways, I could stop killing myself slowly with booze. Alcohol was just my own way of coping and it really sucked.

It's impossible for me to fully understand what you are going through, but FWIW, I can relate. And trust me, life can get better if you let it, but make no mistake: I know it ain't as easy as saying the words.

Chin up and keep on keepin' on!