Exactly how I thought about it in highschool.

That bullet is my ticket outta here and I'll be damned if someone else is gonna take it before me! course, alot's changed since then. I've got people who care about me and a few promises to keep, and overall my life's alot better since I have my own autonomy now.

As a guy, same.

I even told my therapist yesterday that I don't want to try to kill myself, because I'll fuck that up, too.