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[–] [S] 1 point 2 years ago* (1 child)

Yeah, I've thought a lot about this. Thing is, to advance to something else usually you need to excel in what you are doing, yeah? So seems like that isn't in the cards, I pass out from stress naps almost every day at 6p, possibly due to anxiety which compounds the whole experience.. kinda just hate waking up every morning at this point.

I worked SO hard to get into this field, and I love creating things.. but nothing ever seems to come together for me. Decided to write this post out of exhausted frustration as my eyes burn.. the sun isn't even down and I'm so beat I just want to sleep.

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  • [–] 4 points 2 years ago (1 child)

    I tell anyone entering the job market or is a young professional that absolutely no job is worth losing yourself over. Your skills change over time and will never leave you completely. I’m a competent designer, a reasonable developer but the most marketable skill that I didn’t actually develop until my late 20’s was soft skills—mostly developed by gently explaining to tech illiterate coworkers why what they wanted developed was impossible, impractical or just a bad idea.

    I did this by treating every coworker as if they were the client. Be polite, professional and let them know that you want to solve their problems. It’s sounds stupid but people just put their guard down if you lead with, “I’m here to help you”. You can then have more honest conversation about all the bullshit keeping you from doing your job, provided it’s phrased as matter of fact and sprinkle in niceties.

    The cruel irony is that this same disposition that started as a way to make me a more effective developer ended up pushing me into a position where I don’t get time to develop.

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  • [–] [S] 2 points 2 years ago (1 child)

    Well, one thing I do have going for me is that everyone I work with seems to talk me up to management, otherwise I have a feeling I'd already have been removed from this team and moved back to in-company-work. I just can't seem to translate that to getting points.

    Everyone likes working with me, but sometimes I can't work out what I'm even contributing. If that makes sense.. I just wrote it and it barely makes sense to me.. just working through this one bite at a time so take this post as "thinking out loud".

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  • [–] 1 point 2 years ago

    If others sing your praises, then you’re golden. To this day, I despise performance reviews and dread them every year and yet, every year they’re glowing reviews from my peers.

    Being high-functioning often means you’re blind to your own contributions and more critical of your own work than others perceive. In time, I learned to accept the praise from others and blindly trust that things are ok even when every fiber of my being says I’m fucking up.

    Sounds like you need validation more than anything. The points are bullshit if they don’t reflect the effort. Unfortunately, the corporate world is full of bullshit metrics to gauge productivity. I felt this at the bottom and nothing changed moving into “senior leadership”. It’s all bullshit and I encourage everyone to collect a paycheck and just go home.

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