I've definitely started doubting and questing things that I think and feel. I recently quit a job I had been working at for about 4 years, not because of autism just moving on. And on the last day I kept thinking "this is the last time I get to do X". Then I realized that I don't care, like at all about it being my last time, this whole time I've been doing this because I see other people do it. It's so weird to go through this process and realize that almost my entire life has been a facade, it's a good weird, it's an answer to why I've felt this way, but weird nonetheless.