Yeah i didn’t read much, but at one point in my life i was attempting to do something like that and I see all the telltale signs. The difference is that as a teenager I grew up and developed the emotional maturity to understand that no amount of wanting to not be trans would make me cis, just trans and miserable.

Also I grew up and learned how absolutely bonkers rationalism is as a philosophy.

They seem so deep in that the idea of “what would make me happy” has left the equation long ago