It's not sadly the defence mechanism you developed, but luckily.

Because face it some defence mechanism is needed, and the vast majority of them are absolutely harmful. Fuck the ruffled feathers those are the exact kind of people who say "I'd rather ignore it", "I'd rather deny it's happening", "I'd rather say that it's bad everywhere", "I'd rather say it's because of the Jews", "I'd rather sit here and unproductively wallow in pity", or whatever. You are a human, and as such you have the birth right to be bright-eyed and bushy-tailed.