My family is shit. They're also the reason why I transitioned too late. I kinda knew they were assholes since my childhood but after realizing trans, and seeing their reactions, I took what I saw on raisedbynarcs subreddit more seriously and I wish I realized gaslighting earlier too...

They were violent, humiliating, bullying, swearing, making fun of me, neglecting, extremely controlling, threatening, narcissistic, bigoted, EXTREMELY ignorant, and never taught me anything to become an independent person as they wanted to keep controlling me forever.

Now I'm stuck with them for a while until paperwork is done but sometimes I can't stand them anymore. Most shelters in Toronto are extremely disgusting and dangerous. I'm unemployed with zero skills.

I don't want to apply college with my deadname so I have to wait until the docs but it's depressing.

I will also apply for ODSP soon but I'm so depressed. There isn't even 1 good thing in my life...

I miss 2022 when I was hopeful for this country and had dreams...

Stupid me