Same. If I'm in too much pain, the only motivation I have is to fix the pain. You'll never guess what does that.

My people right here. Weed would NOT want me to go to some corporate drone job but, thankfully, that’s not my life.

"I smoke two joints in the morning,

And I smoke two joints at night.

I smoke two joints, before I smoke two joints,

And then I smoke two more!"

And?

Gotta power through the anxiety lol. I did it so much I became functional even when on it the problem was it sucked away my drive to do anything that amounted to anything I just wanted to smoke more weed and mountain bike with a shitty do nothing job.

I now have 3 kids I adore immensely and a job that I love that pays insanely well. I still keep weed around but I can never bring myself to do it because there's too much to enjoy in life why dull my senses?

To your experiencing fascism real time. I hear you. For me it's putting things into perspective. When you look at the world objectively it's a shit show regardless. Make sure you and those around you are safe and you are capable to survive the coming storm and you're good. If you find yourself or someone you love on one of their hit lists you take as many of those degenerate fuckers as you can by any means possible.

I mean I get you, but if I don't smoke my weed my gut shits out everything. Like, things it shouldn't be shitting out. Five different doctors argued with me to start smoking weed before I started (three of them doctors I was paying, two that I am just friends with), and now I ain't stopping.

Exactly. The danger is using it to escape your life. Life shouldn't need an escape. If you feel it does you have a larger more difficult conversation you need to have with yourself.