today is awful, parents is toxic, sensory overload due fcking mom cleaning whole house, every fcking weekend, i got stress aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, i got bad throughts again.................. (such as diy euthanasia), i just cant handle toxic environment which area is 17,098,246 km2 (actually more but there more complex)

maybe just somehow cut off parents and just live hikkiko internet life, but i still lonely i want love care attention etc, i wanna cat mommy which would be care me