The future was always something without me in it, no matter how hopeful I was for the future of computing and space exploration.

Now I'm past the age I was ever going to get to, and I'm more stuck here than ever.

I understand so much more than I ever did, but none of it made me happier or answered my questions, just made me feel like I've been manipulated into a position I never wanted by powers I had no knowledge of.

I make more money than I ever thought I would, and more than my parents did when they had me, yet it's only enough for me to survive on, let alone enough to consider pursuing a partner or going on dates.