Found your problem. If your boys won't accept you when you're having a hard time, you might just have shit friends. We all struggle with different things, there's no shame in being honest about that. A good friend will get that and have your back anyway, even when you need to vent or whatever.
You might get teased a little or something, but you shouldn't really be afraid of that either if you know your friend actually does give half a shit about you.