Not sure how to ask this properly, so I’ll just put it plainly.

I (the subjective self) may or may not exist

That doesn’t mean anything, it just is

We can’t really comprehend this, not because we’re missing something

But because the self can’t get outside itself to understand what’s beyond it

Any attempt to do so is already shaped by being a self

I’m not saying this is profound, or depressing, or enlightening

I’m not looking for meaning in it

I just want to know if there’s a name for seeing things this way?

If this kind of stance has ever been named or written about, I’d love to know. The closest Ive found is things like quietism or madhyamaka Buddhism, yet these are very intertwined with belief and meaning.