I'm trying to say, this isn't about a fucking political compass to me, and I don't have a position on that compass.

The compass shit is bullshit anyways

revolutions ALWAYS fail.

They have succeeded in the past, and it was often disabled people fighting the hardest for socialist revolution- because the status quo was killing them. Helen keller was a socialist.

My life is miserable because I have a disability that means I have to rely on others and was literally been screwed out of a happy childhood by my own government from 2001-2002. I can barely trust my government to give me enough to live on (~$20,000 CAD a year), and full-bodied lasseiz-faire capitalism would view me as human vermin, while all attempts at communism has proven to be endemically-afflicted with an authoritarian existence that would have me exterminated as "useless".

You are in full-bodied capitalism, it's just that it's the people outside your national borders who are the 'human vermin' getting exterminated by your countries military, along with its allies. You get some meager existence in the meantime and lots of treats to enjoy.

You seem pretty worked up about this, but don't seem to have an understanding of what socialists even want. You also don't seem interested in learning.

I work with people who are unhoused living on the streets with far less toys than you have, I've know many people that didn't make it through the last few years. You can eat my shit and hair.

while all attempts at communism has proven to be endemically-afflicted with an authoritarian existence that would have me exterminated as "useless".

This is completely false. Socialist states aren't the ones doing eugenics and killing the disabled. That's fascist and liberal states doing it (I'm sure you see how MAiD is sinister). Socialist states, while not always prioritizing the issue of disability, have sought to help the disabled so that they can help in the ways they can rather than waste away in a hovel as they were left to in feudal society.